Archive for January 2012

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

It looks so easy like awkward moments

Times like this make it seem so easy to text you, you and you. Cause each of you know it all, understood it. I need not explain. Probably within a few sentences you would feel me and not tell me more to change or to possibly correct me. I know what's right or wrong. It's just a matter of stepping out of my own disaster.


Such wickedness.

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Sunday, January 22, 2012

I've got a whole heart and sunlight on my face.



Let me start off by saying that I don't believe in accidents. I'd hate to think that whatever happens is simply the inadvertent outcome of a series of random events with no preordained purpose. Anyway, there's too much evidence against it. I'm not saying that the future is already decided, only that each decision we make, however s,all, helps clear the path toward events that inevitably follow.

The summer when I was seventeen, I was so full of undifferentiated sensuality that the world was a great glowing golden fruit around me. I didn't long for love and nor did I need it, yet I saw love everywhere without even looking for it. Everywhere I looked, I saw people delighting in each other. But I needed no one. I was myself, complete. At night the summer air breathed onto my face with such promises of bliss that I slept in a deep swoon. I was caressed by the morning sunlight and seduced by the long afternoon shadows. And I lapped it all up in such a daze of sensation that I couldn't tell where the world ended and I began. I was so much in love with simply being alive that I could have kissed the sky.

So many summers passed.. Long gone were those shadows and bliss as i paid them no attention. I diverted myself to what i thought i would be happier with. But every addiction was just a way to treat the same problem. Starving in the past, Overeating, Alcohol; it was all just another way to find peace. To escape what we know, our education, our bite of the apple. "Language," a voice said, "was just our way to explain the wonder and glory of the world." He said, "People can't deal with how beautiful the world really is. How it can't be explained and understood."



Here comes another summer. I have been into the summers of playing, being addicted. Being blind and maybe choices with the masses as I didn't know what I want, what lies ahead. All these uncertainty, little steps and choices got me where I am today, got me all my friends today. I'm glad and proud of everything I'm doing now, of all my friends, in Adm, Hana Academy or from other places.

I'm no longer blinded. I see my future. My mentors are living the life I want to live. No. They are living the life I will live. That life of freedom with time and money, being respected and loved by their students. They teach me life, not just a subject. Hardwork will have to be put in, just that I've learnt to put it in the correct direction.

I hope that you're no longer blinded and that you are works towards it every moment of your life now. Cheers for our Happiness.







5 new lipgloss from Artistry. They'll make you so smitten.




Yes I frequent TCC now as due to the big group of people in Hana, there's 50% off at least every week.


Kisses, so you'll forgive me for the delay of nitamago picture as I'm using my iPhone now.

And HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :>

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Monday, January 16, 2012

Your eyes talk to me and seem to hypnotize.

Hi all! Show you my naked eye!




Fat eyelid. I remember someone once commenting that my eyelid looks like it's fake and done with surgery. I should be happy. This post will be on what I wore. I have been editing photos on transit and playing around with my iPhone.

I went to school today and I wore my new chain harness! I was shopping with Yungmei Jie in ION yesterday and I chanced upon it in TOPSHOP! $35, abit ex considering I've a junior who DIY accessories. But I've been tuned to a leather harness costing above $100 that I think this is cheap. Then again, this is not made of leather but it IS, black, gold & studs. SOLD. & I dyed my hair RUBY COOL! <3 P

Purple/red. Depending on light but now it's mostly mixed.





DIY is awesome.



The spiked collar is fixed to the shirt, which some of you probably have guessed is the reason why I'll even have a brown shirt!! It's such a darling! I love hugging people when I wear this.. ;) My lovely mom made a leopard-print cover for my iPad! My friends multiplied my happiness of having such a sweet mom by salivating and gushing over it.


My skirt is from Vietnam! FREAKING CHEAP! And comfortable. Love HANA people! And hey, spikes again (bracelet) but what to do when one is so obsessively in love with spikes, black& gold? Bracelet and shoes from BUGIS. Good deals when you make friends with the shop owner.



The previous day.. I'm exhausting all my leopard print items now as they are going to die off soon! My hair looks soooo edible. And I managed to have a photo of my smile! :D



Leopard cardigan from a halloween shop in Far East Plaza! $35 after discount.


THIS is the tights-- about 10 people asked me where I bought it? Bugis. HAHAHA. Okay maybe I should wear my Dorothy Perkins tomorrow. LOLOL. I never did have a thing for branded goods. I'm more towards variety than long-lasting.



And this paper bag is one of my assignment one year back for my lovely sensei IZUMI! A combination of Weisiong's squares, my bird, Harng's popcorn and Kach's jelly tentacles. I actually do miss the interactions. I kind of bought this bag on mild impulse at Vivocity...





Anticipation is a powerful feeling. It makes your blood rush and your forehead sweat and your stomach turn. It feels like a thousand lights are bearing down on you and you want to escape, but there's nowhere else you'd rather be. It's anxiety and it's nerves and it's excitement. It's the best of the worst and the worst of the best. when you're anticipating what's to come, you build it up inside of your heart until it clouds your thoughts and blurs your vision and makes your knees weak. You can imagine what's going to happen and you plan your actions, try to keep your feet on the ground, but when that moment comes, the moment you've been anticipating, your plans go out the window. You forget whatever you were thinking in the moments before. It takes every fiber of your being to remember things like how to breathe and how to stand. Plans don't stand a chance.

I might finally have my piercings.



Nitamago everyone!

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Sunday, January 8, 2012

Chapter 20. Page 8 of 365. Let's begin!

Questions we ask just make us more confused.

The ones depressed don't dress in black. The ones who believe they're fat don't announce it. The ones scared don't scream. Keep going. Just keep going. No matter what you do, No matter how many times you screw up and think to yourself "there's no point to carry on", no matter how many people tell you that you can't do it, even yourself, keep going. Don't quit. Don't quit because a month from now you will be that much closer to your goal than you are now. Yesterday you said tomorrow. Make today count. Desperation is the raw material of drastic change. Only those who can leave behind everything they have ever believed in can hope to reach their crucial point of enlightenment.

Went to a senior's FYP recently and forever-friendly Wenkai took photos for me! :>




I'll post a nitamago photo later! :D

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Tuesday, January 3, 2012

OPPOSITE DAY!

I met a friend of mine who reads my blog and she said that after a long break, I only blogged once and didnt include my nitamago photo!! Hahah. Love you! Then I replied that I actually have alot of drafts. They're either loaded with photos, or words but not both so now I'm clearing one of those photo posts!

There was one FINE day in 2011 a few of us dressed up as one another or our opposites. Lovely me dressed up as a butch but due to the fact that I've never worn or owned a sports bra, I'm a butch with abit of boobs. Hahahahah. I learnt that details are the most important!!! If Warren hadn't lent me his cap, I wold have failed in the look!!

They are such a bunch of lively souls!! Look at Martin's brilliant mega-watt smile, Ian-style.



Lois was supposed to be a slut, Lara a goth, Patrina a sweet girl, Martin- Ian swap, ... Warren.. some artsy guy who nearly became a walking neon sign! Hahaha. Love days like these. I remember Wendy not recognizing LOIS!!!! LOLOLOL. Lois is a sweetie pie who leaves trails of flowers. Patrina is so full of charisma omfgzxzmaximum I was swept away by the performance by her and her friend!! Amazing. Lara's the damn versatile lady who has unplanned killer stares. Hoho.




Somehow, somehow, Ian just manages to pull off every look! SEE. From "cutely deranged" to this "stylish attitude guy". Deranged, in the positive manner okay!!!!!!!!!! We all love Ian don't we.









I love this last photo :)))) We do not choose to be born, we do not choose our parents, we do not choose our historical epoch. We do not, most of us, choose to die nor the period and condition of our death. Within this realm of choicelessness, we do however, choose how we live. I hope that you are living the life you want to live. Or at the very least, living towards the life you want to live. If not, it's time to think about it.

Nitamago, everyone!

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